Wednesday, August 17, 2005 at 4:14 PM
aLohAXxx. today was a totally SHIeTYFIED DAY can..to sarah : saw yr blog. are you trying to say we're in the wrong for not letting you concentrate on yr studies for geog. and d&t. you keep repeating that try putting yrselfs in my shoes. lyke wad elaine said. have you ever wondered HOW WE FELT. rather than yrs. its always lyke YOU YOU YOU ! then how bout US US US. you told us you'll try to change today. but did you show any improvement. NO ! you think everyday feeling lyke this is great ? it totally SUCKS. and you're making it worse. although mostly its yr fault. but why must you say, everything is yr fault. lyke as if you not happy with it liddat. omg. what the hell am i talking ? forget it. and also, life these 2 WHOLE FREAKING MTHS is enuff for me. everyday, you're quiet. then wad. whole day ? sticking to me today ? hav you ever wondered how i feel ? im so freaked out sometimes by you. always we tell you yr problems alrdy you would only say sorry. would there by any cure if SORRY was said ? its the actions that lies. and some simple common sense of actions you simply dint do. and today during english period in the library. if there's nothing concerning you, alicia wont have showed her temper. she always tries to think how we felt. and helps us to tell you. all the stuff we wanna say. really. i realized, sometimes i rather be with her than you. but no offence. this is wad i feel since you asked about it. you feel extra cos wad we talk, its lyke dun really concern bout you. or sometimes, when its not to yr thinking. you may feel extra. lying helps ? if it does help, i would really try to lie to you than tell you stuff. we have been CONTROLLING our temper for a very long time. 2 mths. and everytime we say we hope to see the change. WHERE ? in mars issit ? and lying to us is a very nice thing ? i dun think you lyke that either rights.. you noe we all have been trying to show actions to tell you how we feel rather than SAY IT OUT. cos it will be so so HURTING. that we dun wanna do . you say try putting ourselfs in yr shoes. we did that. by not telling you. so that you realize there's sth wrong.w hen you noe, you open yr MOUTh to ASK. not keep yr mouth shout and dun talk. i feel as if we are that ones that are being mean. when we did NO-THING wrong. now i tell you. THIS IS MY CONCLUSION. thats it.
okay. for today. its a freaking day. i fell . goddamit. and my maths book dropped into the drain. so DIRTY !! forget it can study its good enuff. LOL. then hurt my left leg la. and the FCUKING shengda and cheejie go luff okay. fcuk you la. you fall down you see i will luff at you not. some more they just look no helping. since you cant help then get yr ass off la. keep staying there. then cheejie so irritating. you okay a not ? so many times keep saying this. i angry almost punch him okay. bloody hell. then go disturb an injured bird. get a life la. sickening day. shitty ppl. unhappy MOMENTS. disrupts all my happy thoughts. urgh. gtta go. byebye.